Ever wonder what the heck you're actually doing with your life? I have. and it used to be ALL the time. As a twenty something in this generation aren't we all programmed to think our lives are living up to the potential? Not enough business, not making enough money, not enough Instagram followers, not a nice enough car? Let's take a step back. If you could have complete happiness for lack of a better word, what does that entail? Is it money? is it travel? is it changing your career? is it not having debt? is it physical like losing weight and getting in shape?
SANTOSHA; A word derived from ancient Sanskrit which translates to "contentment" "inner peace" "inner bliss".
While living in LA, a series of events occurred that kept digging me into an emotional and depressing roller coaster. It was until one night when a good friend and I went out to a Hollywood coffee shop. I had known her for some time, as we practice yoga at the same studio and she was also an amazingly talented teacher. Her and I became close over time, and it became effortless to open up to her about life. (She's also my same sign, Sagittarius)
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We spent time chatting about how broke we were, our non existent love life, and played with some tarot cards. An innocent coffee conversation quickly made a real spiritual and awakening turn. As we kept talking about different options I have to make changes in my life, it suddenly hit me. Im going to move back to Florida, I decided right then and there that was the best and most perfect decision I could make. It felt right. It made sense. After living in Los Angeles for 2.5 years constantly broke, and struggling to buy food or gas in my crappy Jetta, i suddenly realized that I wasn't LIVING. I was simply "surviving" and being in Survival Mode in the hectic and narcissistic city of Hollywood maybe isn't what I needed anymore. I was no where near completely satisfied with the way life is going, so ultimately I had nothing to lose. All I could think about day in and day out, was saving enough money to travel again. Asia and Indonesia have always been dream places of mine to visit and travel, but it was always such a far fetched desire since I was making minimum wage in LA, and working my ass off in retail or restaurants, just to level out to $0 and make ends meet by the skin of my teeth. As I made this random and perfect decision to move back to Florida, I envisioned how I would be able to actually find a yoga teaching job there, and a waitressing job, and finally save money for life, and for a little bit of travel. I was 25 years old and had $25 to my name and a Bachelors Degree in Fashion Merchandising, along with a fresh Yoga Teacher Certification that I was ready to take advantage of.
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I will always remember that night with Coco. that rainy and somewhat gloomy night, turned into a bright epiphany where I literally imagined what my life could be if I just took a leap of faith and SURRENDER.
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